bye, for now.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010 @ travelling around.
until i find a more pleasing blogskin, I'll be over here!
Saturday, May 29, 2010 @
I can't put the thoughts in my mind down into proper sentences.
family
dinner
love
mother
father
brother
talk
show
reciprocate
daddy
taxi
sleep
work
children
school
home
envy
empty
guilt
difficult
computer
music
old
kisses
closeness
food
time
help
family
it's been long since we've had dinner together.
@ Hello y'all. It's been long!
I have been working (ahem, considerably) hard.
Passed hist essay, passed econs case study test (WHOO HOO! :D), GOT DOUBLE DIGIT FOR MATH LECTURE TEST 2 ZOMG xD (yah, I still failed, but!!!), got a good job! for TOTS assignment yayyyyy!
Future might not be so bleak after all!
I just have to continue my fwighting!! spirit through the holidays and I'll ACE!! (hopefully) my midyears!
[happy vibes are all around! Must be the holiday spirit!]
It's time to be more organised and start making use of my Happiness 'scheduler' again which was left forgotten in my bag after 2 successful weeks of usage. Following the 2 weeks, I stopped completing my daily to-dos and thereafter completely blatantly ignored the existence of such a notebook. I fail.
on the other hand, I just finished filing up ALL my notes and stuff today! Which is a mean feat considering how for the past 10 years of my school life, I always got by file checks praying that the teacher would not notice that few missing assignment/notes. GOOD JOB BERNICE! :D
that would make studying much easier! No more frustrations on being unable to find THAT note hidden beneath all the other notes.
To be benighted is to be intellectually ignorant. omgggggggggggg.
I think. I just misread my entire GP compre for midyears. shit.
Thursday, May 13, 2010 @ "Opportunity is missed by most because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work"
With my newly found and instilled determination, I shall conclude the last of my lack of self-discipline to study today.
Have been a little tooooooooooo distracted while studying all these while. My mind isn't reciprocating what my body is trying to do, and has thus set limits to my supposedly ability to focus (at places like the trusty library, swimming complex macs and skcc), causing a recurrence of unintentional stoning and not making any arithmetic progression at all (much less a geometric one). I could transform into a hyperbola. (whaaaaaaaaaaaaa..)
I should move along with where the vectors are pointing me to.
TO SUCCESS!! 8D
(okay to first passing my lecture tests and all, and then second pass ALL my midyear papers -econs and math especially!-, before I can set my sights on those Cs and Bs for promos before improving even more for my prelims and a levels next year.)
Goals make me excited and hyped up!! (better not die down 1 week later ><)
off for GPP and transformation and conic!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 @ My life.
and my education.
Involves me:
1.) Reading
2.) Feeling
3.) Thinking
4.) Analysing
5.) Writing (very very quickly, like the world would end in 1 hr 30 mins)
and then..
I read again, feel more.. Think! Do more meta-cognitive thinking. And write (with the speed even lightning can't compare) again.
And the process repeats,
Except when I do math.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
but. well. It was my choice after all. Can't complain.
Still far better off then memorising and applying physics formulas =P
Hola, I seriously wonder what I'll turn out to be in future.
ramblings: can't help but complain about my stupidity and idiocy for bringing all the wrong books and stuff today. Heavy like a mad dog (econs wts). wrote a lit essay until my hand became damn cui and couldn't copy notes properly during the consecutive lit lesson -.-
yay 9 am reporting time + 10am lesson ftw!
shall go do math/read more history till 2am
whoopie! exciting stuff.
Sunday, May 9, 2010 @ Happy Mother's Day!
You know how idol dramas always make it such that the girl's always quite stupid and naive and not too pretty and the guy's always darn suave/cute and super smart and sweet and all?
wah lao, why such things don't happen in life one?!?!
D:
or maybe not yet. hehe. (okay, bernice, please DO NOT fantasize.)
go read your history notes and dream about sukarno or phan boi chau or bonifacio or prajadhipok or something.
Sunday, May 2, 2010 @ For my 500th post,
I'm deciding to sound a bit happier.
Usually on a Saturday night, I'm thinking
"Oh shit. I die. It's Sunday tomorrow. And I have that pile of meaningless work to do."
Today, I think
"I've 2 more days to go"
Long weekends ftw!
:)
Still wish I could just disappear though.
